I can’t tell you how fast I tear open my mail in the mornings. My mailman is a late-arriver, and typically I don’t get my Monday mail until I’ve walked the kids to school on Tuesday morning.
Today I flipped through envelopes and found a letter from one of our dear sponsored kids in Ethiopia. His name is Mikiyas, and he is tall and gangly like my own boys. I love this kid. I love seeing pictures of him and wondering about every bit of his life. Does he feed his chickens before he heads off to school in the mornings? Does his grandma fix him a bowl of cereal and chide him to get out the door before he’s late? My heart longs to meet him before he is a man.
There was a picture inside, the first I’ve ever seen of his flashing white smile. He is standing in front of a bed with an orange and blue flowery bedspread. It has been pushed up against a corrugated tin wall. In front of Mikiyas is a load of grain–easily a hundred pounds of it–a jug of oil, and a brand new blanket wrapped in plastic.
I have noticed a trend over the past several years, one of indignance over a “white savior” mentality. I’ve really thought about this, because, of course, I am white. I wonder what part I play in perpetuating some sense of privilege and unfairness. I truly love Mikiyas, but the fact is that I’ve been born into a place where my advantage is to his advantage, if I play the cards right.
I’ve also seen a trend just in the past few weeks over folks freaking out about coronavirus. I’ve thought about this, too, because there is a massive pile of Costco goods in my basement lying in preparation for the moment we might need forty pounds of rice, two gallons of maple syrup, and enough pancake mix to feed the neighborhood should we all be quarantined.
We are scared people, and easily spooked. We worry about overextending ourselves, giving too much, giving too little, appearing overly sensitive, appearing properly concerned. We think a lot about how our actions are perceived, whom we’ve offended, how seriously we are taken. On the flip end, we think it is our absolute responsibility to prepare for the worst. We frantically drive to the store and fight over that last loaf of bread, the last jug of milk. We–who have hardly ever missed a meal in our lives–worry there might not be enough.
We live in a nation of plenty, but confronted with potential, visible danger, we brood over the scarcity of things and our absolute, complete reliance on the local grocer. We are all incredibly self-obsessed.
Every time I fly on an airplane and am lucky enough to score a window seat, I slide up the shade and peer down at the earth below. Usually I’m flying across Kansas. It’s amazing to be high above it all. I look down and the towns are maybe an inch long, a cluster of trees and buildings the size of Monopoly pieces. Nearer to Kansas City, there are bigger homes–little Monopoly motel-sized buildings–arranged in circles, sometimes with a small blue square, a pool, in the back. From a 10,000 foot perspective, all of humanity is made up of clusters, people huddling together in itty bitty communities with hundreds of miles until the next town, connected via tiny floss roads. Rivers twist like veins, farmers’ crops are small squares with perfect circles inside.
I don’t think about individuals, because it’s impossible to see a human being from this high up. I don’t think about the “white saviors” below me, living in their tiny mansions. I don’t think about the street people, the hungry folks sitting on the curbs, or the illiterate kids in impoverished schools, soon to go home to cold, empty houses.
I actually think about how big God must be, how infinite. How patient and loving He must be to plant us like seeds in the dirt, little imitations of Himself. Glory on the ground, when we let Him use us. And yet the fears that bubble up in our pea-sized minds threaten to drown us and our whole world. The worries that we aren’t doing things exactly right, or this notion of inequality…Boy, is gravity an equalizer. Humanity links us all.
The coronavirus is singlehandedly causing a financial crisis before it has barely landed in the U.S. We queue up at Costco, our carts stacked full, fearing the worst. Fearing death.
Overnight, a tornado popped up out of nowhere and wrecked parts of Tennessee. According to the news, 180 people were either killed or hurt and sent to the hospital last night. They had no warning.
And there is Mikiyas, smiling. One of the worst locust swarms in recent East African history is methodically stripping all the crops and threatening food security in Ethiopia, and there is Mikiyas grinning in his tin house, enough to make a fool of my preoccupations.
We live day to day, just like Mikayas, but the difference is this: Mikiyas knows it. We refuse to recognize it. We don’t like our lips to confess that life is fragile. We don’t want to acknowledge diseases that cannot be stopped, a world that is filled with famine and disaster.
We’d rather live like gods, pretending our Monopoly-sized houses are sturdier than his little tin home. Costco will save us, and if not her, our local hospitals and well-spoken politicians.
It is funny how we rely on other people to tell us how to feel. I am thankful for the frequent letters in the mail that remind me how to think.
Mikiyas smiles, he flashes glory.
And I remember the God who loves and takes care of him is the God who loves and takes care of me.
Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air: they do not sow or reap or gather into barns–and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Matt. 6:25-26
We will not fear, though the earth gives way… Psalm 46:2
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